jb recap.

( most likely tl;dr concert recap )

I'm just going to use this post to entice my entire flist to consider Jonas. Because they're amazing. HERE, I'M JUST GOING TO LEAVE THESE PRIMERS RIGHT HERE, OKAY, JUST YOU KNOW. PRIMER ONE and PRIMER TWO and just in case you guys want some of that music stuff they do, go educate yourselves on Nick Jonas' musical geniusness and download some of their stuff because it's GOOD and it'll make you happy and leave you pleasantly surprised and YOU KNOW YOU WANNA.

OKAY SIRS. I HAVE BEEN ENOUGH OF A WORDY BITCH TONIGHT. THANK YOU AND GOODNIGHT.

i wrote this little thingy right hurr for my most wonderful shampoo, who is forever the metis to my josh and who i lauve lauve lauve! first semi-long thing i've written in months, so you know. ignore my lack of capitalization - i wrote it like that originally and it doesn't bug me and i'm way too lazy to fix it. enjoy!

UNTITLED [working title: 'HANNAH'S GAY ILUS']
☞ honeydew syndrome // josh/metis | pg | 1051 words [WHAT] | a confession!

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[ DAY 146-49 | year of smiles. ]

public transportation and shitty phone connections. being grilled about dramu. having talks with cat and dad for the first time in a long time. dancing with my little brother. black outs. fisherman's wharf. chocolate shirts. haunted gift shops. texting commander. itos of all shapes and kinds. getting back into the groove of writing. up. fat little kids, old guys and talking dogs. love love love. three more days!

Thanks to my shitty internet, I've spent the past few days feeling really fucking isolated. I'm lucky if I get five minutes in between disconnections and it won't tell me until ten minutes later, which leads to me just thinking I'm super incredibly boring to everyone I'm talking to and not worth replying to and as much as I try to remember that it's my internet, that immediate feeling of rejection isn't something I can really control and having it happen at five minute intervals hasn't really put me in the best of moods the past few days.

But it's okay! There are worse things in the world and the worst thing about this situation is just not being able to be there when people need me, which sucks.

I read Paper Towns by John Green today and I highly recommend it, it was fucking hilarious and made me want to pee into a beer can and go on an adventure like no one has ever seen. However, it also brought me to the very sad conclusion that this is a very hard thing to want to accomplish as a 14 year old.

Anyway, I'm going to quit flappin' my mouth and get to gettin'. I'm going to leave this post public just in case anyone has something they need to tell me, completely honestly. I'm a tough cookie, I promise I can take it.

HONESTY MEME

PURSUING MY TRUE SELF.

Guys. Tell me something that matters to you. Maybe something that's bothering you or something that you're proud of or something that you care so much about but it's the stupidest thing ever. I wanna hear it. :)

ANON ON/IP OFF.

this is the non-judging zone.

I just want to thank Jaclyn for puchasing me a brain for New Years. MAY THIS YEAR BE LESS STUPID THAN THE PREVIOUS.

XOXO, YOU COTTON HEADED NINNYMUGGINS.

LET'S RING IN SOME

honesty

WITH THE NEW YEAR

THE MEME

whores around. :>

I really want to take the time and seriously, from the bottom of my heart thank you guys for helping me through the past few months. I don't know what I would've done without this one anchor in my life and I will forever be just so glad that I had some people to fall back on. This past year, I've gained friends (gained best friends), lost friends (lost best friends), but above all? I figured out that I don't have it all figured out. And these past few weeks, I've come to terms with it. I'm okay with it. I'm okay with the fact that I'm changing and that things aren't like they've always been.

To all the people I used to know: thank you. You might not be reading this, but every person I've met has shaped me at least a little, whether I know it or not.

To all the people who I continue to know: thank you. Hopefully, you're reading this and you understand just how much I appreciated all of the moral support and all of the late nights cheering me up and just. you know. everything. I can't thank you enough. I don't think I can even express what all of your support has done for me. I really can't.

So, you know. Thank you. Thank you for who I was, thank you for who I am and thank you for who I'm going to be. The people who I surround myself with slowly shape me into so many glorious things that I would have never been all by myself and just.

Jesus chocolate christ. You all are amazing. Exist on my side of the universe, okay?

MEGS this icon is for you. :>